This is my first beheading

I´m alone

full of darkness,

full of pain.

They found the secret doors in me

by opening my vein.

Now I know.

It´s not dirt.

It´s just theatre of the world.

There´s no need of fear or shouting

we all play our roles.

I am doubting.

Is there enough time to achieve all my goals?

They cannot hurt me - I am armed.

In my mind there´s a place

I can go

I can hide.

With all my secrets left behind

I ´m

sitting on the floor in a cell,

I am waiting for them to take me to hell.

I am ready now.

Set me free,

tell me how.

I´ll just pay the fee

to Charon, the ferryman.

He is not any more the bogy-man.

I´m only afraid of so-called humanity

which sends innocent people to eternity.

I´m satisfied.

Will you invite more guests to funeral of this night?

I´d like to say goodbye and tell them the purpose of life.